Transition

I find my biggest struggle in parenting is the constant transitions. I remember when Bryson turned one and my sweet easy going happy baby all of a sudden developed an opinion. This happened literally over night. I was so caught off guard I didn't know how to react he started hitting me when he was mad it kind of broke my heart. I remember being in tears after he looked me in the eyes and so aggressively pinched my face. I thought God what have I done? I dove into books again i read EVERYTHING about toddler brain development. You know what?  I didn't do anything !! Bryson was simply blossoming as a individual and I needed to adjust my thinking to allow that to happen naturally. This went against everything I wanted to do as a mother I wanted to turn back the clock , lock us in a room and pray that time somehow wouldn't apply to us. I felt myself feeling almost like I was suffocating because my baby MY BABY was detaching from me. Nobody told me about this...... He is my baby he is apart of my body we are one!  But i was wrong we aren't one we are two completely different human beings and as time passes that will become more and more evident.  As a parent my job is help this be successful to allow every transition to be positive to help him thrive and to fight threw my fear. This is something that brings instant tears to my eyes but its life and if I want Bryson to become his best self then I need to give him space to do so. Lord please help me

I started thinking about how much children grow and change and are constantly learning. they are in a constant mode of stretching their abilities and challenging their very existence. I can't help but think that we are never supposed to stop having transitions. That we are supposed to be constantly learning and growing.  Why as adults do we get stagnant? Kids don't have comfort zones they stretch to their capacity zone. so why don't we continue to do so? Maybe if I'm constantly stretching myself past my comfort zone and reaching new transitions asking myself what can I become? Maybe Bryson's transitions won't be such a difficult thing for me. 

Editor James Terry White Observed: "Nature has everywhere written  her protest against idleness; everything which ceases to struggle, which remains inactive, rapidly deteriorates. It is the struggle, which remains inactive, rapidly deteriorates. It is the struggle toward an ideal, the constant effort to get higher and further, which develops manhood and character."

This is me thinking out loud!

Nite nite friends