Orange fish

Do you ever feel like an orange fish in a sea of purple fish? Lately Ive been feeling a little dis connected, a little isolated, a little (maybe a lot) mis understood.  Ive been learning a lot about myself and this world around me. Ive been learning just how different we all are, how my truth is not your truth. Not because its not the truth but because we are all on different paths, different journeys. This isnt easy for me Im a passionate learner, if I can be better please tell me. I spend a lot of my life learning, I spend a lot of time thinking adjusting myself. Please dont mis understand this for boasting as its not in the slightest, Im a work in progress I will be till the day I die, I dont believe there is such thing as "arriving". I mess up daily, but I try to be aware of it and change it. The hard part for me is Im learning a lot of people dont want to change, they are happy right where they are in their pretty little comfort zone. I think sometimes its just to much work to change, its another thing on the to do list, I think it hurts to change we have to then admit we messed up(not easy), I think it can isolate us to change (exactly where I feel I am)
I struggle with this in part because I want to love and be loved by others, I want to be excepted, I believe as a christian its part of my walk to be able to walk among everyone and be able to connect just like jesus did without judgement. I find the line between distancing myself to protect myself and judgement to be a blurred one. How can I say I feel like I can not be around you anymore for my own personal growth without that person feeling judged or it even being because I am judging their path in life? Or that because I am on a different path I am now being isolated and judged. How can you love people for where they are at when you don't agree with their life choices? Is it good for you to surround yourself with that?
I know confusing right? Maybe I just need to find some orange fish. Maybe I need to understand my truth in such a way that its mine and only mine not to be shared. But then who is Kirista Berry if her truth is not worn on her sleeve?  I guess those who love me will love my truth for exactly as it is as I need to do the same for your truth, and if not then this orange fish will need to swim on to warmer, more loving waters.

Nite nite friends